ANNA PENG

“I Don’t Care”

One of my biggest vulnerabilities that can really get to me is when somebody tells me the three magic words, “I don’t care.”

It’s sharp yet blunt, and carries a weight like no other.

Maybe it’s because I care a lot.

Or because I have to be reminded that not everybody has time to appreciate the things I find incredible in this world.

To me, “I don’t care” is a really bad way to deal with emotion and feelings.

It’s a voice that holds a lack of love and curiosity and prefers to hide away instead.

Also a real lousy thing to say when somebody else is trying to talk with you in real time.

So how can we respond to I don’t care?

I don’t know.

We can’t control other people’s thoughts and feelings, but we can control our own. And what we should know, is that what other people say doesn’t really matter as long as we feel confident enough to stand our ground.


Signs of Change

We think our wardrobe no longer expresses who we are.

Old possessions feel as if they belong to another person.

We feel differently about our usual habits.

We see the world around us as though it’s been tweaked, like a hanging picture that’s been alligned again.

Our eyes widen towards new things.

Change.

It doesn’t have to be a change for the better (or for the worse), just as long as we’re willing to accept that whatever it is can make us be more of ourselves.


I’m Finding A Voice

Not just finding and adopting any voice, but one that we can call our own.

I need something that feels like me, that sounds like me, and can replace me when I’m having an off day.

Not a clone, but a reliable voice. 

One who can preferably put her foot down when she needs to, or can bring in reason and kindness when I need it.

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